I woke up . . . WHERE!

Well toda y has been interesting so far. I mean I woke up on a bench at one of the tram stations with my duffel and tablet bag with nothing missing and even a ticket FOR the tram . . . that I did not buy. . . Was odd as hell.

I think this is due to not being able to sleep much at all. . . Over the last few weeks (since losing my car) I get on average 1-2 hours of sleep a night. . . I try to take a cat nap on the tram but then what happned to me today seems to occur. . . go figure, right.

Have any of you had something like this happen before? It is really wierd, though for one I think I am really lucky. Nothing that I can tell was stolen, walets good, tablet was still with me (thank the gods) and my magic cards are ok as well. I think I got what. . . 4ish hours of sleep on that bench but DAM I woke up refreshed. Sadly it is another night of 35ish degrees F.

What is up with . . .

What is up with the homeless in this country. . . no one really cares. Now one really bothers. Now please excuse me I love to rant every now and then and at the time of this blog I am freezing my legs off next to a closed Starbuck (what can I say. . . I love the web. . . )

Please forgive me if you are one of the FEW people that actually do anything for the homeless. Maybe you work at a soup kitchen (don't nderstand those might bring those up later. . . hmm) or maybe you donate your time or belongings to places like the Salvation Army or Goodwill (great job. . .still to damn expensive). These are all find and dandy, and maybe these things help you rest easy at night knowing that you assisted in making a diffrence.

What a load of *bleep* (yes I can self edit myself. . . got a problem with that?) Who do you serve when your working at a soup kitchen? You think it is great that you help out like that. Good for you but who are you really helping? Yourself. That is who you are really helping here. You want to feel better about yourself and that is one way to do that. Seem legit, heck I need a pick me up from a downer every now and then (NO not like that. . . damn druggies I meant self esteem) but does that not dilute the whole WHY you are doing it. It is no longer about people like me who are freezing and starving on the streets of cities near you (see what I did there) It becomes more about you and how you feel.

Tell me, you see a women shuffling along the street with a metal card and a bag over each shoulder. Do you stop and help? Now what if she asks for directions, do you give them? Now what if this kindly lady sits down and starts laying bare here woes. Do you even care? If you did you would have stopped, helped out as best as you could and listen to her woes. (ranting. . . I know. . . its what I do. . . ok will stop now)

Where was I. . . OH YEA! Assisting the homeless. You know I see people drive around daily in their Corvettes and thier Lexus's not a care visable to the world. No worry about food on the table, no worry about the rent (morage for you married with a family folks). But tell me, do you see the person walking down the streets, the feeling of dispair on their hearts. Now these people are not always homeless, no they can be just someone who is having a tiff with life for a bit. I was there in the Navy MANY times. You know these people, they are the ones that are always distracted but they are not on a phone or procrastinating, these people are deep in thought, just like most homeless today.

Tell me, are most all homeless, already homeless to begin with? (shhh I know the answer. . . maybe. . .) Think on this a bit, go ahead. . . I got all the time in the world. . . . . thought about it? GREAT lets move on shall we?

God why am I homeless. . . some of you may be wondering. . . this guy who ever the hell he is is kind of smart. . . in an annoying sort of way. . . (why yes I am!) I am your typical loser. No really I am, I was in the Navy, I had a job, I had a Wife, had a car (lost that tonight. . . my last recluse. . . ) but now I am homeless, why you ask. . . Because I am a straight up loser. Let me explain. I have NO idea what I want from life, and right now it getting harder and harder to type about this due to the bloody cold (no I am not british. . . I just like the way the curse. . . ) Where was I . . . OH YEA. . . I have no idea what I want from life, and sadly I do not know how to put forth my maximum effort to really do anything. Sad eh? Regardless I keep trying, it is down troding and everything but I just cant seem to give up. . . Whats up with that!

Ok what I really wanted to say before getting drawn off by the pretty words.

This morning I had a car, yes it was parked at a local Park and Ride (longer than it should have been) and yes I slept in it nightly, but tonight when I got back to the place I parked it. . . It was gone. . . towed away. . .my home! gone. . . now I am shivering outside this Starbucks typing away at this trying to make since of this funny little planet we call earth. . .

Anyone got any ideas on this? I for one would LOVE to hear them!

Oh well, leave your comments in the section below. . .or is it to the side. . .I can never bloody remember. Till next time

~Lys

Hi it is me. . .the blogger. . .

So a bit about me so everyone knows a little bit more.

I am a 23 year old male gamer (don't leave just cuz I am a guy!) that currently. . . you guessed it. . . is homeless. Living on the cold streets of Portland Oregon and parts of Beaverton. I am a prior enlisted sailor in the US Navy and have had some trouble reallocating to civilian life. Go on. . .have your -you poor thing- moment. I know I would. . . but there would be a bit of sarcasm attached. . . what can I say, I AM an ass at times. Well some would say all times but I digress.

So this blog is going to be pretty much what is on my mind at any givin time including some of the games I am playing, currently hatching, or even running.

Now games, that gets your interest right? What games does this person play. Well I do it all, from Magic the Gathering (EDH/Commander), console gaming (homeless so DS only of course), to Roleplaying games such as Star Wars, D&D (4.0 is CRAP! . . . sorry done venting at that), and my personal love. . . Pathfinder (the proper 4.0 imho.), to table top gaming. (from 40k to Dropzone Commander), to board games.

I am what you would call a jack of all trades. Great at everything I put my hands on but sadly not a master of anything. Frustrating really, watching people excel beyond your capabilities bt knowing that you could do so much more. . .

Now you will be venturing into my head. . . (mind the cobwebs. . . haven't dusted in here for so long. . . ) You may gain some insight from me but who knows right? I will rant and rave at you almost daily but for some reason I think you will be back. . . ( I mean if my crappy jokes don't keep you not sure what else will). You will find I am a childish sort of person (my ex-wife loves telling me that) but you might also find that I have nuggets of wisdom in everything I say and do ( who could have thought).

Who knows what you will find here. Hopefully it is something that you like, something that will change your perspective on things ( at least I hope so. . . if not come back for the rant! Gotta love a great rant. . . )

Well that is me in a nuttshell. I might tell you more. . . some day. . . some day. . .